03/27

Hi there,

It has been such a long time since my previous post

hmm

It's hard to express all my feeling in the past 6 years within 1 post

But I'm currently a year 5 student of NDMC in Taiwan

And now the pandemic COVID-19 is influencing global economic and international flight

I haven't been home for 2 years, I'm lonely and I felt insecurity

How bout my life u ask?

I'm still jobless, I still asking money from parents although I'm already 25-year-old

Internship isn't easy for me

To be honest, I struggle for knowledge and marks, even though I always tell others I'm ok with any marks given but actually I tried my best to let myself get an A and above

Teachers treated us well, I finally get to realize people need to work as hard as you can to get what you want, not only saying but acting. 

And school reputation did mean something as people who toil hard to be qualified as a best student just to be chosen, these people shows their consistency, determination and resolution

I lack of these qualities, I get tired easily, I'm unable to handle stress, I have low EQ and I couldn't stand people's rebuke

I finally realize my own weakness, It's something to be acclaim

I tried to force myself work hard, I end up with amenorrhea for half year, I'm afraid I will die very early if I continue to do that

Okay that's all for today

I'm happy with learning new stuff everyday and I will try my best to live happily

Not to escape from social and work

Fighting

Recent me

24/2

Today is chor 6 of CNY

I have counted my angpau money which is extremely less than past of the years

Hmmm

SAD

Okay 

Few months ago 

I decided to follow some rich kia in instagram to remind myself do not simply get into a relationship and to find someone like them so my life will b pretty easy

But

I end up with envy -.-

I WAN TO BE ONE OF THEM

I WAN LAMBOGHINI 

HAHAHA

I have made up my mind in the past few days

I like money instead of love

I need 4 flat to hely me get into good university and so to get an opportunity to go NZ

Sometimes i just feel this world is pretty unfair

I would like to have a world with just black and white

Why grey do exist

Why my hardwork doesn't get any payback

Arrogance to claim?

Laziness?

I just get to realize something few minutes ago

I can't accept that i couldn't solve question after i did my revision

What to do?

I'm such a fool

I have made up my mind

I NEED TO BE RICH NO MATTER HOW

But the problem is with such a big ambition im still seduced by the korea drama!

Wadaheck am i thinking

Haih wadever lak

mayb after few years 

i read back this passage

i will b regret again

So

last warning

J, PLEASE DON DISAPPOINT URSELF AND ALSO UR FAMILY

LETS WORK HARD
AND BECOME RICH !

30/7

Hi .

Today s wednesday

and i choose to skip my tuition and i wil attend saturday classes

:)

becuz im lazy

hahaha

okay im here to announce only one thing

- 4 days passed -

hmm 

im so scared to let GG know the facts

so i choose to keep quiet

and let themselves to find out the truth

i think no longer in the future they wil b able to figure out

STPM

im going to knock u out

4 flat s belong to me

babe fighting !

7/7

Hi .
Today s monday :)
And i skipped my school to watch movie in my house for the whole day

There was a spot check in my school ( SMK DESA MAHKOTA ) today
To be honest
Im damn nt satisfy wif this damn school
No uniform and allowed us to wear casual
but there r a lot of restrictions
they made mpp just like prefect in our secondary school
so i think that there s reli no differences btw my previous school and this damn stupid form 6

Ask me bout my form 6 life ?
Wad i can tel u s SUCKS
ntg more than that
the damn stupid school seperate me and my secondary school friends to all diff class
this made my life much more difficult and miserable
ISH !
there are also smtg i will like to highlight bout this damn school
NO APPARATUS FOR LAB
PAY TO PHOTOSTAT DUE TO NO A4 IN SCHOOL
these are those thing i cnt accept
even worst than my previous school la SHIT !

Beautiful memories in this school ?
NO

Good teacher ?
chemistry and muet yes

okay talk bout my tuition
PA - i purposely go to petaling street to have my pa tuition ! i sacrifice my saturday morning from 8 - 2 . i spent half day to sit ktm and walk to bangunan pakpeng , bt im pretty satisfy wif dat teacher (Y)

CHEM - i go to two diff tuition ( cekap and TU ) and wad i hv to say s just my chem stil as bad as las time haha

BIO - SUNDRAM s pretty good enuf :)

MATH T - Mr pang :)

okay lets talk bout koko
i participated a badminton competition that will b held in UM
wif my bossie ( YKW )

- wushu
- ping pong
- kelab membaca

ohya ! there are stil smtg i would ike to emphasise for this damn school
NO PING PONG TABLE ! FCK

And too i joined librarian :)
rather than mpp coz im tired to b a prefect anymore :)

okay dat it is .
-BYE-

19/3

Hi
I'm here again

Tomorrow is the day !!!
SPM result
My feeling is like " oh shit "
Okay
I got ntg much to say
I just hope i can get 9A's and above
Because i really put so much effort on my SPM
NERVOUS
i started to b nervous on this nite ...
as usual

I've been holding my P lisence for quite a long time i think
but yet my mom still worried bout me
and every time i drive she will b at the passenger seat
yet
b ready to pull handbreak -,-
i was so haiz...
my skill so suck?
i always ask this to myself
LOL

YOLO
i just came back from my Penang vacation
IT IS SO EXCITED BABY
so rare
i mean so miracle that my dad will approve
will let me go out wif my friends
this is the first time i ever leave my home for 4 days and 3 nights
definitely
for my family i think they will feel the time s quite long
but for me which stay wif my friends at penang
the time passed only a blinking of an eye
i will never forget about this trip
<3 XOXO


 

5/2

Hi
Im back here again :)

Happy CNY 2014 !! 

Currently im working at coffee bean desapark city
i met most of the friendly staff there
at first i thought dat faizal and ble was a good person
but i slowly realize dat it wasn't :(

Thanks to God
i met Joyce , Kate , Tham and my dear friend - Jasmyn

Joyce invited us to her house which located at southlake
we gamble and steamboat on that day
it was so awesome dat can chit chat wif cofee bean staff
( actually we only talk bad about somebody :S )
but somehow the sombody became out topic for the whole night
im so sorry /.\


Next
dady brought us to Singapore and Melaka to celebrate CNY for this year
a very first time
somebody sent our reunion dinner to our home 
my life s lifeless at there
sleep and sleep and sleep
felt so suck to celebrate CNY at Singapore
although we stay only one night at Melaka
but im more satisfy at Melaka than Singapore
Thanks daddy

My car
Kancil finally reached my house on yesterday night

Yesterday night
something finally happened between me and him
he told me to follow my own rules
never chat wif a boy who is in a realtionship
it was so fucking hurting
i use to say those things to him which is so hurting
yet i never realize
but he still treat me as well as he can
he will never argue with me
he is the one who always tolerate me wif no terms
i'm so sorry
finally
i regret ..
i shouldn't let him to fly away
how good if we can be together just like the time dat we've been through

Dat's all

I suddenly felt dat blog is a good place to recall all the memories

Appreciate :)

19/6

after sivva's class
now my mood s like a piece of shit
yet u stil din't find me
i hv no one to express my feelings right now

so wad do u think?
angry?
im afraid
u will hv a better relationship with others
fuck off
i think too much since i know u
y cant u just apologize
u will make my day

so i think tmr s our team's turn to do perbahasan
all the best
i realized dat we reli need to rush
ahahaha 
if nt we will never do anything

i cant express my feeling right now
feeling super angry
and i ain't know y

feel like wan to cry
mayb i feel disappointed?
so be a strong bear :)

if he s nt going to talk to me anymore
okay im just about to forget him
hope i can?
ahahhaa

time to slp
nitez :)